[There was the question he had been waiting for. Since coming here, he had been asking himself the same question. In the First Order, there was no room for regret or remorse. He would not have survived if he let himself think about it and doubt himself then.

But he was away from the First Order now. Anakin had planted seeds of doubt in his mind where they had taken hold. Did he have to do that? He wouldn't have been able to stop the Supreme Leader, his life would have been forfeit for treasons against Snoke and the First Order, but he had a choice. Maybe he couldn't have stopped it but he wouldn't have been one to give the order.

He nearly reached out for Klaus's hand but he saw the expression on Klaus's face and put his hands in his lap.]

At the time I was optimistic I ended the war. I regretted that the scale of the destruction, the Hosnian planets suffered for the crimes of the Republic. When the Supreme Leader ordered for the weapon to be used again, I tried to refuse. It wasn't something that I wanted to use lightly.

[He took a deep breath as he continued.]

Being here, however- I'm not in the First Order for the first time in my life. I never thought about what I did before I came here but since then I've been wondering if I really ended the war, if it was necessary in order to bring peace to the galaxy. If it was worth the cost. I don't think it was.

[He looked away then, looking out the window for a few moments before gathering his thoughts. He couldn't believe he was going to say this but- he looked back at Klaus when he spoke again.]

I wouldn't do it again, I know that for certain.

[It was the truth. Perhaps the war would have dragged on without using it but he was starting to understand that they paid a high price and not even have ended the war as intended.]